The High’s and Low’s of My Life . Summer 2011

It has been waaaay too long since I’ve blogged! I’m so sorry about that. I have a TON of stuff in the works, so be on the look out for all kinds of good stuff to come.

I don’t always share my personal life on here, but feel the need right now. Lately, I feel that my personal life is overflowing. I used to be an avid writer. I’m not claiming to be any good, but I miss it. There is something healing about getting the words out and on paper. I’ve had so many wonderful things happen this summer and some of the hardest things life brings as well. I feel like I am in the middle of a massive thunderstorm – the extreme hot air has hit the coldest cold air and it is intense. I’m standing in the rain with clouds overhead and can see the sun shining too.

You see, I have these two amazing little boys who bring joy to my life every single day. I love their little faces, hearing their sweet voices, squeezing those delicious thighs and even smelling their little heads. Jay is growing up so fast and each day brings more big boy behavior. He is growing in his independence and yet still loves to snuggle with his mommy daily. Yay! He makes funny jokes and says the darndest things. Liam is talking up a storm and makes me laugh every morning when the most important thing to him is to put on his “shhhh’s” and “haaaaa”. LOVES his shoes and hats! He too loves a good snuggle. We read lots of books and I will gladly drop what I am doing when my children want my attention. Life as a mommy is the best! The best part is sharing these two boys with my best friend in life, my hubby, Paul. There is truly no one else in the world that I would want for the father of my babies and for my life partner. He is kind, gentle, loving, hilarious, goofy, responsible, trustworthy, loyal, and so much more. I love this man and am so blessed with the family that I have! We also have the best doggie in the whole wide world. I swear he knows my feelings and wants to wipe my tears. Kirby is his name. Business is going great. It has grown more than ever this past year and continues to grow and stretch me. I’ve had the honor of being featured in several magazines and blogs both this summer and coming up this fall. (Will share details soon!) Even a cover feature! I have the best clients in the world. So many of you have become friends and I am thankful for every one of you. I can’t complain here one bit either:)

Now for the hard stuff. Juggling my own business, being a wife and a mother, and taking the time to live has always been a challenge. This alone is enough to stress out most normal human beings on occasion. Being self employed has so many blessings and perks that it is totally worth it to rise to the challenge, don’t get me wrong. It can just get hectic sometimes. So throw on top of that other stuff and it can get hard fast. I know this will sound silly to those that aren’t “dog” people, but about a month ago, Paul and I had to put down our first baby, Kiya. She was our first dog kid. She was only 10 and became ill unexpectedly. After spending 3 nights at the vet trying to get better, it was clear that her health was getting worse, so we had to make a tough decision. I know dogs come and go, but it doesn’t take away from the fact that I miss her terribly. I see her empty bed and miss her red body all curled up. Jay often talks about Kiya being in doggy heaven. I have also learned that the high chair gets dirty quickly. We never had to clean it when she was around… she didn’t leave one drop behind:)I’m sure at some point I’ll post more about the fabulously entertaining life of Kiya.

Then comes the lowest of lows… As some of you may know, Paul’s sister Ellen has been fighting breast cancer for the past 3 years. About a week ago, she received the news that her cancer is growing again, back in an old spot and has spread to several new spots, including several spots in the lungs. She was on a trial and because of the growth, has been officially kicked off of the trial. Ellen and her husband, Jack, face some tough decisions this week and the coming weeks as they try to decide if there is another trial option, or if stopping the course of treatments and taking the time to truly LIVE is the course they are meant to take. We continue to pray for a miracle! If you are a believer, please keep her and the family in your prayers. She has two young children, my beautiful niece, Emmarie, and nephew, Seth. Ellen is just 31. Ellen has been an amazing testimony as I’ve watched her grow as a woman of Christ and share her walk and love affair with God with those that know and love her. She is already a miracle.

I’ve never experienced the polar opposites in my life simultaneously like this before, the best of the best and one of the worst things anyone can go through. I find myself overfilled with joy and thankfulness and hurting to the depth of my core all in same day. In both, I am thankful to feel. I am thankful that I love someone so much that to see them in any kind of pain, hurts me too. I am thankful that I can laugh so hard that it can bring warm wet tears rolling down my cheeks. I am thankful for the moment I feel the weakest, God lifts me up and instantly I know with him, I will get through. I’ve learned that nothing is a higher priority than those you love. None of us knows how long we have on this earth. Please don’t hesitate in telling those around you just how much you cherish them. This experience has put so much into perspective. I don’t want to hesitate any more. I don’t want to waste another minute. Love with all your heart. Laugh with all your might. Breath with all your soul. Don’t hesitate. I know I won’t.

This summer I traveled to Michigan on two different occasions and both times took the boys. On one of the trips, Paul was able to join us and while we were up there, we had our family pics taken at Lake Michigan. Below are some of the faves from Lisa, who shot them for us. Thank you Lisa!!

All photos done by the fabulous Lisa Kae!
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Amber - 09.12.2011 - 8:37 pm

LOVE the family pics. SO cute. Mitch and I will be praying for Ellen for sure.

Amy - 09.12.2011 - 8:47 pm

Thank you Amber! I hope all is well with you and your beautiful family :)

Amy C - 09.13.2011 - 10:10 pm

What a beautiful post Amy! I’m sorry for the loss of your dog. I get it. :( I was thinking about your SIL after I ran into you the other day. I couldn’t get her off my mind thinking of the decisions they will have to be making. Makes me sad. I’ll be keeping her in my prayers. Your family photos are so great! You have a beautiful family!

Charisse - 09.15.2011 - 8:37 pm

My dear friend,
It is better to light a candle than to curse the darkness. You are lighting a candle in sharing Ellen’s story. You are reaching out for prayers and God listens. I pray that everyone will keep only positive healing thoughts for Ellen in their head and their heart. There is a power in prayer and a power in positive.
You are a beautiful human being. Thank you for reminding us that life is precious. You and Paul are doing an amazing job of showing your family just how wonderful life is….
Love you!

Caitlin - 09.19.2011 - 1:02 pm

What a gorgeous family!

Caroline - 09.24.2011 - 9:17 pm

Thinking of you and your family! Your family, photography and your writing are all extremely beautiful… best of luck in the times ahead :)

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