A new year is upon us. As January 1st rolls around every year, I think it’s only natural for us to reflect on what the past year has brought and what we hope to see in the coming year.
A New Year . New Hope . New Chances . Fresh Starts . Clean Slates
2010 was quite a year in my life. The biggest and most exciting piece of the year, welcoming a new son, Liam Thomas! Hands down one of the best moments of my life! This alone makes this year one for the books. Add to that a growing business, an amazing 2 year old, learning how to be a family of four, a wonderful husband, family, friends, a home, I could go on about all the ways I feel blessed. Really blessed. Yes, 2010 was a great year! A busy, crazy, wonderful year! I have to say at the moment, I am so sad to see you go…
We went home for the holidays to visit with family. Paul’s sister, Ellen has been fighting Breast Cancer two times in the last two years. While home, Ellen had a scan to see if the chemo she has been undergoing for most of the year had done it’s job. While the chemo worked on killing the initial tumor, the cancer has spread. Since hearing those words last Tuesday, my heart has sunk and I feel like crying and throwing up pretty much at the drop of a hat. There are a lot of details I won’t bore you with, but basically, the tumor is in a location that makes surgery not an option. Chemo obviously didn’t work and at this point they are giving her options to help keep the tumor from growing as fast… no cure… no good plan of attack. The hope is that there is a clinical trial that she is a good fit for. We are praying for a miracle! If you are a praying being, please keep her in your prayers. She is a mother of two young children, a wife, a daughter, a friend, an auntie, and a beloved sister. This is not the way I envisioned starting a new year. I’m struggling to continue to hand the fear over to God and stand on faith. I’m drained. I feel empty. The good news is 2011 has a long ways to go and has plenty of time to bring along that hope. I know that God has a plan and that there are so many good things yet to come this year. I know that God is a healing God and that He can heal anyone. I know that He is carrying me when I feel like I can’t walk on my own. I know God is loving and has His arms around me and is holding Ellen as she walks this path. So, welcome 2011. I just wished you would have knocked first.